I'm so sorry that I like, died on here.
I've become another Mindless MySpace User.
But you should so go check it out, anyways.
I'm probably never going to really be on here anymore.
Cheers to all of the people who keep on updating, though!
Always and Never
*~Krystal Kathleen~*
YES.
In a good mood because Desperate Housewives was on.
And now I heart Panic! At the Disco.
I don't care if they're getting old.
Lol.
Yeah, I'm going out with Angel now.
Don't know how this is going to turn out, lol.
My cousin and I are crazy.
We're going to kipnap Marilyn Manson away from Dita von Teese/Heather Sweet (who strangly looks like my mother when she was younger, lol) and force him to pay for our trip to every gothic club in Germany & get us into all of the v.i.p. rooms and shit.
It's going to be a party.
And in cheerleading, we started on competition shit.
Cannot wait.
I wish I was a flyer.
Lol.
It's never gonna happen, though.
So, leave comments to make me happy.
This is supposed to be the first Scorpion from the other post-thing. But it didn't show up, so now here it is.
Okay, I know that I havn't updated in a while. So I thought I'd start with some pictures. That work for everyone? Lol.
That's called a scorpian.
That's a heel (or "hell") strech.
Another scorpion.
Okay, I'm going to bed now. Ciao lalas!
Ugh, I hate posts like these. Whiney sounding, annoying, tragic... I hate them so much, but now that I reilize it, I can't make out what I'm trying to say sound any better.
I do have some reason why I feel like this, though. I know what's doing it.
And yet, now for the whiney part...
I really have no time for myself. Whenever I'm not cheering for 5 days a week, 3-ish hours each; catching up on homework; attempting to finish projects; trying at get at least 5 hours of sleep every night; trying to keep everything in order like, doing laundry, putting things away, cleaning...Pretty much trying desperately to please everyone. I think I'm failing algebra, that I will find out today. I have only one class out of four that I have actual have friends in, and that's my C Block class.
And that class is cut short because we have lunch then, too. I'm always the last one picked for these stupid group projects, I never have anyone talk to me. For my first year of high school, it pretty much sucks ass right now. I cannot believe that in 8th grade that I wanted this so badly. I should have just fucked up my grades in middle school so that I wouldn't have to deal with this crap.
I always get jelous whenever my friends talk about their boyfriends or girlfriends, or about all the parties they go to. I would never have really any time to go to any parties, and I'm not soical enough to have a boyfriend or a girlfriend. And I really don't know how I'm finding the time to write this out right now. I'm supposed to be writing up on a story for my english class, of which I am kind of doing, but it's not going to be finished all too fast...
The semi-good part is that I really don't let any emotions other then happiness show through. I'm always smiling, or laughing at something. I hate crying, but I can't help it. I think that the amount of times I've cried in the last three-ish months is more then I have then the like, seven months before that. I'm one of those people who if you're good friends with, you can't get to shut up. Not in a bad way, because I can be very amuseing. I just really hate awkword siliences. I tend to do that...I'm generally a happy person, but this is tearing me up inside.
Which explains to the people who have noticed it, why I havn't been talking a lot, or I havn't been smiling as much. And it also explains why I havn't been blogging a lot lately.
Excuse my abstance while I attempt to sort out my personal problems.
Please and thank you?
iloveyouallthisisnobodysfaultbutmyown
Always and Forever
*~Krystal Kathleen~*
Fighter762 (10:57:35 PM): i bet my dads gonna take me outta school during queer week
Fighter762 (10:57:36 PM): lol
K Pinkified 14 (10:57:51 PM): What?! Why?!
Fighter762 (10:58:09 PM): he blocked MTV on the tv upstairs cuz it had gay Room Raiders on and hes like "WTF?? we dont need this shit in our home" and
Fighter762 (10:58:12 PM): blocked it
Fighter762 (10:58:13 PM): lol
K Pinkified 14 (10:58:20 PM): =-O
Fighter762 (10:58:22 PM): im hoping he does
K Pinkified 14 (10:58:30 PM): Stop!
K Pinkified 14 (10:58:34 PM): You're horrible!
Fighter762 (10:58:59 PM): it was my dad
Fighter762 (10:58:59 PM): lol
K Pinkified 14 (10:58:59 PM): And let me guess, you agree with all of this??
Fighter762 (10:59:16 PM): oh, ofcourse
K Pinkified 14 (10:59:28 PM): ...seriously?
Fighter762 (10:59:35 PM): yes
Fighter762 (10:59:52 PM): i saw gay room raiders i was like "awww comeon!!! wtf???"
K Pinkified 14 (11:00:02 PM): Don't.
K Pinkified 14 (11:01:16 PM): Ugh, you know, it's people like you, that cause people like me, to commit suicide.
Fighter762 (11:02:21 PM): people who commit suicide are loser teenagers who cant handle their problems so they take the pussy way out before they can mature enough to handle their problems
Fighter762 (11:02:35 PM): and its also a one way ticket to hell
K Pinkified 14 (11:02:56 PM): You know what?
Fighter762 (11:03:10 PM): hm?
K Pinkified 14 (11:20:18 PM): All you do, is diss and are cruel about who I am, and people like me. You would never understand why people would commit suicide, because you can never look at things from other peoples points of view. Some people, somewhere's, even in the U. S. of fucking A. have rocks and ice scrapers and bricks thrown at them. Think that's bad enough? Try living with it everyday. So far, we don't really hear of this happening in E-ton, but the nation's most top hate crimes are against gays. 56% of those hate crimes, to be exsact. 61% of them were men. Suicide isn't the only reason why gays are dieing, murder is other thing. What if you married a women, then found out that she was gay? Or even bisexual? And if you loved her? Let me guess, you would disown her, right? It's getting pretty old, Ryan. And you're getting too prediciable. I know that we have a lot of differences, but you're litterly hurting something of which I stand for and believe in so much, that I would do anythingfor it. So from now, until you start seeing things from other peoples point of views, please don't talk to me. I've been really fragile since like, last week, and the assload of shit on my mind doesn't help with your cruelty.
K Pinkified 14 (11:20:36 PM): So, so long, and goodnight.
Fighter762 (11:20:51 PM): wow, type me a novel
K Pinkified 14 (11:23:08 PM): I've been holding on for too long. Remember what I said. If you're really my friend, then you'd get it.
Fighter762 signed off at 11:26:26 PM.
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-bites lip- Was I too mean? He just gets me super pissed when he starts talking shit like that...and even before then...I've been really stressed lately, and him saying that just really set me off...
Comment?
Always and Forever
*~Krystal Kathleen~*
We're convinced that our math teacher does crack.
His pinky nail is sooooo figging long.
Save me from my cracklord of a teacher?
That's probably why he's giving me such bad grades.
Oh yeah, pep rally tommorrow, I'm gonna piss my bloomers.
Oh yes, by the way, if I didn't make it clear enough already...I'm bi.
Happy?
It shouldn't matter who you love, just so long as you're happy.
God.
Somebody stole my earrings! -tears-
Always and Forever
*~Krystal Kathleen~*
Oh my goddddd...I'm so mad, I didn't get first honors! -rawr-
I got seconds.
Which is okay I guess, but I really wanted first so that I could go back to WMBS and shove it into all of the teachers & so called 'autorioty's faces who "knew" that I wouldn't get through highschool alive.
Algebra-84.58 (B-/B)
Computer Concepts-88 (B+)
English-92 (A-)
Health-99 (A/A+)
Notice how my two morning classes are the lower grades.
Friggin high school teachers.
I don't mean to sound like I'm bragging, but I just really wanted that revenge.
Friggin WMBS teachers.
Oh yeah, I went to the GSA meeting.
Mad kewl, yo.
Lol...
Yeah, I have a MySpace, too.
Here's the link.
www.myspace.com/browneyedglory
Go now or parish.
Always and Forever
*~Krystal Kathleen~*
Haha, I don't blame anybody for not replysss, lol. The last like, 5-ish entries were put in there for my own sick amusement and bad memory. xp Lol.
Yeah, I have nothing really to write, lol. Ooh, I failed my math test. It's news, but not esactly the good type. Lol, now I have to stay after like, next week. And it's a pain in my ass.
Yeah, for the time being, I'm boring.
So sorry to disappoint you.
Always and Forever
*~Krystal Kathleen~*
Always and Forever
*~Krystal Kathleen~*
- The Golden Age of Grotesque
Blegh, I think I'm going to stop this damn blog. It's starting to get boreing, and I don't feel like updateing anymore.
The Devils Are Girls with Van Gough's Missing Ears
(You Say What You Want, But Filth Is All That They Hear)
*~Krystal Kathleen~*
3:05 PM
Currently Playing: Savage Garden
Ugh! I am so damn bored!
Oh, I finally got a birthday present. At like, 1:00 this mroning, lol. Fifi woke me up & gave me a present. It's super kawaii! She got me a pink skort, a pink tank-top, a pink heart necklace, & star earings. I LOVE them! Except the skort & the tank-top are a little big, but I can extange them, lol. She got a me a kawaii card too, with like, a cat on it. (Don't ask, I just thought that it was really cute!) And my babci gave me a card (which almost made me cry, I 'unno why) , & money.
I was so mad though yesterday (but I didn't write it...) 'cuz my when I was at the play, my dad was at home on the computer. When he could have been watching me, on the play that I've been working on for a year! I told my mom when she asked if they could come. & I gave her the papaer that Mrs. C gave us, she apparently read it, threw it out, said that she couldn't come, & didn't tell my dad. How stupid! It was my birthday too, ugh!
Fifi took me to the mall this morning, too. I got this kawaii tube top from Target, lol.
I'm not really in a happy mood, so I'll maybe write more later.
3:07 PM -
Currently Playing: Here for the Party
- Pocahontas Proud
Ooh! We BLEW IT! Today was the day that Drama did the plays, and apparently during the last show, there were talent scouts. And after the last show, Dani & I were yelling/screaming up & down the stange. UGH! I am soooo mad! I wish that someone had told me that there were damn talent peoples in the front row!!! I would LOVE if they sent me a letter! It would make today almost perfect. But I highly doubt it. They better send me a letter though, otherwise I shall beat them with a stick.
But during the morning showings, NOBODY LAUGHED! I figured that it would end up that way, but during the afternoon show, the people actully laughed. IT'S A MIRCLE! Lol! But it was sooo much fun. But I'm going to hate myself for what happened at the last show, about the talent peoples.
Oh, and it's another mircle! Brian i.m.-ed me. "Oh. Wow." Yeah, I know, I'm sad. But personally, at the moment, I really don't care....except for the fact that he takes friggin' forever to i.m. me back. Lol. (I love that face! ^.^)
Oh, and everyone apparently loved my part...? Lol. It was so funny during the very very last show. Everyone is dressed up all in business suits and shuff, then you see me walk out in a bright African/Hippie type dress, with a bowler hat with feathers coming out all over from it, & a dark green ribbon around the base of the hat. Yes, I was the bitchy, nosey neighbor from the tenth floor, lol! I liked my part, and thank god that the person who was really Mrs. Flegdeling in the beginning dropped out. I think that it was Alyssa H.? I don't understand how she got that part anyways, she really can't act too much, (by what I've seen.) But I think I'm pretty damn good! (NOT to be cocky or anything, just going by what people tell me.) Lol, Alli(pon) told me that I looked like, really scary, lol.
I loved today, other then that talent scout screw-up, cuz almost everything went right. No class, except for activity period, and the very last class-science. And to top it off, today is my birthday! ^.^ Lol. Plus, I got out of like, 2/3 tests. Buttttt, I have to make them up on Tuesday. No school Monday! ^.^ I so happy, lol.
Yesterday Danielle & Alex had Gigi sing me the "Happy Birthday" song. It was so funny! I apparently was blushing really bad. But, oh well.
And now I've got to go eat with my Babci, parentals, & cousin, lol. So write more later maybe.
Turn around, now switch.
*~Krystal Kathleen~*
5:15 PM - add eprops - add comments - email it
Thursday, May 26, 2005
YES! Brian was on today, and he isn't mad at me! ^.^ Either that or he hasn't checked his e-mail...>.< Oh well, I still feel bad about it. Errr....write more later! I have to go get my eyebrows done!
4:50 PM
Yey! Cheer practice was today! Ashley apparently quit on us, but can’t do anything about that...ooh, & I should have gone with Melinda to Big E’s on Monday...she raised like, 90-something dollars. But my parentals got home late & I forgot to ask. >.< Oh well, at practice I ordered 2 boxes of candy, which would give me...50 dollars I think? But that’s just for all of the candy, my money is taken away from that. Once the money for the candy, itself, & the program takes away their share of the money...what’s left is mine. That’s why I hate candy fundraisers. Ooh! At least we’re having a Mark fundraiser! I can think of a hell of a lot more people who would but from me for that type of stuff. Yup, my house is full of Wal-Mart shopping, Avon loving family. So that fundraiser would work out for me...Besides, I’ll probably end up eating all of the candy that I get anyways...lol, I can be such a pig! Lol. Oi meh gawd, today during swimming, we had free swim (like we do everyday, because only like, not even 10 people go), and Alex, Jon & I we’re pretty much the only ones going off the diving board. So Alex & Jon decide to do cannonballs. Yeah, one guess for how that turned out...Alex(T)’s splashes were a lot bigger then Jon’s (whose dives have bigger splashes then his cannonballs), and when Alex got out of the water, everyone was clapping. I blame them for my ranting because when we got back into the locker room, she felt all bad about her weight & shuff (which she shouldn’t have to). Oh...Brian hasn’t called me back yet. I feel so bad! I know that I shouldn’t have sounded like such a bitch in the e-mail I sent him, but I was just so mad that day at everyone (and it showed in the e-mail). I told him that he had a week to call me back, but really I’m willing to give him a year. But apparently he wants nothing to do with me...Jon’s right, I "really shouldn’t cry over something as stupid as him.". But I don’t find him stupid, I find him...procrastinating. Which is kind of annoying me, but I can’t do anything about it so... Oooh! Remember those little hand fortune teller things that all of the girls used to make in like, 4-6 grade? Yeah, well, Danielle had made one a while ago (not really a long time, more like 2 weeks ago), & she was using it today at lunch. I tried it twice, & one ‘fortune’ that I got told me that I’d get a phone call from somebody that I haven’t talked to in a while. And the other was that somebody who liked me would tell me & ask me out. Sounds hard to believe, eh? Well, Dani G. somehow related those two to Brian calling me up, telling me that he likes me, & then asking me out. That, I find even more unbelievable. Another scary fact is that this movie that I'm watching, there's a couple in it. Well, they're goth, but that's besides the point. Their names are Crystal Sparks & Ian Snyder...weird, ne? I probably am starting to sound like Danielle, putting two & two together without facts. But I can't help it. The least that he could have done was send an e-mail back! Ugh! I hate this stupid project that we have to do for science class. The structure thingy? Yeah, well, Leidy & I had all of the measurements out, perfect down to the last millimeter. But it turned out to be too big, and that we didn't have enough balsa wood. So we declared ourselves screwed. We have activity periods & class time to work on them, but I'm out for activity periods all week. Due to Drama club shit that I really don't feel like getting into at the moment. So we only have 4/5 hours (I don't know if I'll be out of class on Friday) to work on it together, instead of 10 hours. Which really sucks on my part, because I need the good grade. Don't touch me please I cannot stand the way you tease. *~Krystal Kathleen~* | ||
And the least I could have done was not have been so cruel in the e-mail...He had never been mean to me. Actually, I've never seen/heard him be mean to anyone before. Even to Chris he was nice...well, then he would talk shit behind his back, but that's not wanted information right now, & it's not helping my point...
Yey! I just got all of my editing done (so far) on this. ^.^ Makes me all happifulls...But anyways... I couldn't get into the damn JV Cheerleading chat. My retarded computer from hell wouldn't let me. It just shuts down all of my windows. It does the same for Victoria's Secret & Hot Topic's websites. Ooh! Drama Club had a costume check today! I didn't know what to do for my Mrs. Fledgeling costume, so Dani & Mrs. C. & I snuck into Mr. P.'s room to steal some of his costumes. I ended up getting this skin-tight african/hippie dress, & a bowler hat. (We're glueing feathers & shuff onto the hat, to make it look more...like the character would have worn it.) But oi meh gawd! The plays are SOOOOO boreing! Mrs. C. picked them out. She had some great ideas at the beginning of the year, but she decided on these two boring ones instead. When Belinda was still in Drama, Dani, her & I attempted to have Mrs. C. change some of the shit so that it wouldn't be so damn boring. But, Mrs. C., being the boring person she is, refused. Needless to say, Belinda left Drama. I would have done the same, but I missed last years' Drama Club, & I just love acting too much to quit. Ryan was being an ass today, passing off cancer as though it were nothing. Apparently he "didn't know", but whatever. Ooh, Dani & I FINALLY decided to go to cheer pratice tomorrow instead of Drama's dress rehersal. We figured seeing that we pretty much have all of our lines down, & we're having rehersal again twice this week. We can SOOO tell that Mrs. C. is pissed/jelous that we choose Cheer pratice every Wednesday instead of Drama. But oh well. The only thing that is so important about staying after tomorrow for Drama is that we actually have our costumes on while we say our lines. Oh wow. Big friggin' deal. We have rehersals during activity period all this week. What the difference between costumes or not? I don't want to spend any more time wearing my costume then I have to. It's kinda uncomfterable....But whatever. I personally don't think that it fits my character's part.
I'm off to the floor, it's my time to Waltz. *~Krystal Kathleen~* | ||
5:33 PM - |
Ughhh...back from a three hour practice, and I'm like...dead, lol. But we're on basket tosses! \m/ And we have like, 5 people throwing Diane up into the air. And she's so light, so she'll go flying, yey! Lol. It's gonna be fucking awesome.
Pft. This is weird. I traded my good social life and bad grades from last year for this years good grades and bad social life this year. Lol.
I guess everything is just fucked up like that in the end.
Oh well, I'm trying.
Lol, my life right now only roatates around my few good friends, cheerleading, and grades.
Sad, ne?
Yeah, I thought so, too. Lol.
Always and Forever
*~Krystal Kathleen~*
cant believe i never updated37 weeks along nowhappiness =D